I'm not ready for this...

[boxcarracer]

yesterday i found out that my 88 year old grandpa has bladder cancer. I'm closer to him than any of my other relatives. I am not used to the concept of death, because i have never had anyone close to me besides a pet die. I don't imagine how i will be able to cope with death very well. I'm expecting he is in his final months, but i hope it's not his time yet.

[watch1the8world2]

i understand where you're coming from i've never had anyone close to me die and my dad had a huge scare recently, it's scary. im really sorry though

[Grey]

I have had alot of family members die. And I am not going to lie, its hard.

[Sergio]

Yeah, it's very tough unfortunately. How old is he? Look at the bright side, he got to live his life and he's not dying young (I'm assuming he's old since he's your Grandpa).

I remember when my Grandma died. There was more people than usual at my house, and they all left to the hospital all of a sudden. The next morning I didn't want to wake up because I had a bad feeling that she had died, and finally my parents came to my room and told me. It sucks. :(

[Madie]

Death is always a really really hard thing to deal with it. Some people lose loved ones and never get to say goodbye, because they're gone suddenly. You could try to take this opportunity and spend as much time with him as possible and make sure that nothing goes unsaid between the 2 of you

[Sergio]

I agree with Madie 100%. My English teacher's mom just died this week, and she lived in Kansas, so she never got to say goodbye.

[Josh]

I lost my gran last September. It's hard when it finally strikes you that your loved one is gone. Death is a painfull thing. When you realise that they're not around and that you won't see them again is extremelly tough.
I would suggest spending alot of time with him and make him feel at home and loved. I'm sorry to hear about this. :(

[Prez]

I agree with Madie 100%. My English teacher's mom just died this week, and she lived in Kansas, so she never got to say goodbye.

Weird, my bio teachers mom died. It was not unexpected though because she had a lot of problems from smoking. I feel bad for my bio teacher, and she is one of my favorite teachers I think ill give her a hug on monday before class, as long as we dont get in trouble for "touching" haha.

[Prez]

EDIT isnt working so ill say this heree

BCR, spend time with him as much as possible, do whatever you can to make it easier on you. And just remember the memories you have of him.

[...Chris...]

Play this while i make my speech:
http://www.youtube.com/v/7cw70ukoHEg&rel=1
Death happens to everyone, it takes time to cope with death of a loved one. Try not to remember your grandfather in his worst, only remember the good times and how you looked up to him.

[boxcarracer]

thanks guys, i appreciate it.

[boxcarracer]

update


he's been in intensive care for about a week now, and he is having alot of trouble breathing on his own, so he's hooked up to a ventilator to pretty much keep him alive, but in his living will it says that he doesn't want to stay alive by machines. He's officially in his final weeks/days. I've been to every visitation to make sure that nhothing has been left unsaid. He can't talk back to me, but he can gesture and hear me. He's really drugged up right now. He will be proof whether there is a heaven or not, since he's been one of the best people i've ever known, and has been a great christian person his whole life.

[Sergio]

That sucks. Good thing you know it's coming that way you're spending time with him. Sometimes people just die randomly and things are left unsaid.

[boxcarracer]

That's what i am really thankful for.

[BlinkAvAfan21]

i'm sorry for you, but i cannot understand how you can feel because i've never had that fucked part of the life, death.