watch1the8world2
02-03-2008, 11:18 PM
Alright guys i've posted in this section before about that one girl that was causing me trouble. I try not to complain, or generally post in here but i am at a pretty low point right now and i need to vent majorly. This all basically revolves around that girl. She really has been my center of most of this crazy shit that has been going on in my life. It basically starts when we broke up. We were like inseperable i always thought about her i felt like nothing, absolutley nothing could hurt me. When we broke up i went absolutley nuts and felt like my world was going to end. I've been searching for reasons to get over her. It's slowly working but i'm not doing well. So, we broke up two weeks ago and that week was hell we didn't talk avoided eachother basically hated eachother. That weekend she went out with this kid, i do not know details cause it's really not my buisness. Anyway it was always in the back of mind who this kid was. So then last week, or the week that just passed we started talking again, just casual talk.. you know like friends do. Then towards the end we started talking alot again, but i found out who her new boyfriend was and it was this kid who i honestly thought was gay. Anyways, i knew i still wasn't entirely over her. So i go to my schools varsity basketball game and at the game we talk alot and things seemed good. Now there was a party after this game and she asked me if i could give her a lift over. I was fine with it my dad though thought it was a little weird cause i tell him almost everything cause he's like my best friend. We get to the party and walk in and chill. There was this girl i had been talking to alot the whole week and she was ignoring me almost, i talked to her and we chilled for awhile and sorted it out. We partied for awhile and before i knew it i was dragged into a room by this girl and we were making out. I was thinking of my ex-girlfriend the WHOLE time and i almost wished that she would be jealous and think what a mistake she had made. Well after that night i didn't talk to her so last night i went to my friends house. We bought a handle (of vodka) and had some cans. I drank almost to make me forget about this girl. Now it was about 11-12 and my friend and i were both pretty well wasted and these girls called and wanted to hang out with us. So we went to her house and they were in a hot tub in bikinis and it was like 30 degrees out. so we stripped down and got in with them. Well next thing i know i am making out with another girl who i had just met that night. I woke up this morning back at my friends house learning this girl was a year younger than us and a MASSIVE bruise on my right leg. So i go home feeling like shit.. and my parents think i have the flu or something. I was sleeping in my bed until i was awoken by my dad asking me why there was beer in my over-the-night bag. I told him that we had stolen it from the fridge but fell asleep before we drank it. He bought it but i felt terrible about the whole thing. So then i get on AIM after the superbowl and this girl is on. Now she isn't allowed to talk to me cause when we fought her mom found our texts and told her she wasn't allowed to talk to me. She somehow had found out about last night. She told me everyone knew about it and that i had been changing into this cocky kid who think's he's a total badass cause i drink. I didn't really know what to say and i just wish these things i did would not of happened. I need something big to happen, i need a change, im spiralling out of control and i donno how to stop myself. ANY advice is great i just really am lost right now.