Sergio
03-12-2008, 11:57 PM
You don't have to read this. I just want to let it out. I don't trust my current friends that much to tell them all this since I barely met them like a month ago.
I have a love hate relationship with life right now. I'm trying to become less materialistic and I've considered leaving the city for 2 months and live with hippies in some mountain. The only thing I would take is my guitar. I thought about taking my camera, but I can express my experience with writing. I just don't want any technology.
It's hard trying to become less materialistic when you are threatened though. I'm getting hacking threats. They have all my personal information. They stalk me on MySpace, AIM, Msn, and even my phone. One of them called me and pretended to be my host and wanted my passwords, I'm not that stupid obviously. They also pretend to be girls, and I've blocked quite a few people in the past few days. Their next target is my site theblackparade.net and it's a huge site with over 400,000 posts and it's honestly hard trying not to be materialistic and accept the fact that it might be gone. If they don't hack it, they're still going to attack it to shoot up my hosting bill, and I'm not paying hundreds of dollars just to have a site. I managed to brainwash myself into believing that it's JUST a site, and that I'll still have all my limbs. And as some of you may know, my neighbors got robbed recently, and my teacher's mother died and it made me realize I don't need any crap. All I need is love.
Oh and now my mom wants to move again. She has no idea how long it took me to get myself settled here. Eh but I guess it's for the best.
All this pressure is affecting my grades. I just can't concentrate. It's not procrastination anymore, I simply can't concentrate. I'm thinking about dropping my political science class (deep down I know I passed because I challenged myself so much and I accomplished things that I had never accomplished before.) I even failed my piano midterm because I can't focus, and I honestly shouldn't be failing a test for such an easy class (let alone that music is my passion).
But overall everything is good I guess. I pretty much have a social life now. I meet new people almost every day. My band is doing well and we have a show in April. I've also been getting along with my classmates really well, not that I didn't get along with them but I'm just talking more in general. Oh and I got an A in my last English paper so I guess I'm not doing terrible in school.
BLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAH
/rant
I have a love hate relationship with life right now. I'm trying to become less materialistic and I've considered leaving the city for 2 months and live with hippies in some mountain. The only thing I would take is my guitar. I thought about taking my camera, but I can express my experience with writing. I just don't want any technology.
It's hard trying to become less materialistic when you are threatened though. I'm getting hacking threats. They have all my personal information. They stalk me on MySpace, AIM, Msn, and even my phone. One of them called me and pretended to be my host and wanted my passwords, I'm not that stupid obviously. They also pretend to be girls, and I've blocked quite a few people in the past few days. Their next target is my site theblackparade.net and it's a huge site with over 400,000 posts and it's honestly hard trying not to be materialistic and accept the fact that it might be gone. If they don't hack it, they're still going to attack it to shoot up my hosting bill, and I'm not paying hundreds of dollars just to have a site. I managed to brainwash myself into believing that it's JUST a site, and that I'll still have all my limbs. And as some of you may know, my neighbors got robbed recently, and my teacher's mother died and it made me realize I don't need any crap. All I need is love.
Oh and now my mom wants to move again. She has no idea how long it took me to get myself settled here. Eh but I guess it's for the best.
All this pressure is affecting my grades. I just can't concentrate. It's not procrastination anymore, I simply can't concentrate. I'm thinking about dropping my political science class (deep down I know I passed because I challenged myself so much and I accomplished things that I had never accomplished before.) I even failed my piano midterm because I can't focus, and I honestly shouldn't be failing a test for such an easy class (let alone that music is my passion).
But overall everything is good I guess. I pretty much have a social life now. I meet new people almost every day. My band is doing well and we have a show in April. I've also been getting along with my classmates really well, not that I didn't get along with them but I'm just talking more in general. Oh and I got an A in my last English paper so I guess I'm not doing terrible in school.
BLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAH
/rant